


what a week! i will start with the high. we had the most wonderful family vacation in san diego and santa barbara this past week. bill, charlie and i met bill’s parents in san diego (del mar) on thursday. tom and laura had amazing accommodations because tom is the current chairman of NAMM (big deal in the music business) so we bummed along to enjoy the presidential suite at the Grand Del Mar and it was over the top. after the NAMM meeting concluded on sunday we headed up to santa barbara to stay at one of their friend’s homes in Montecito – again over the top.
in san diego we were able to do and see many different things each day. we often did something in the morning to mid afternoon and then came back to relax by the pool before getting ready for a delicious meal. in santa barbara, we biked around, went into wine country for a day, and played with charlie in the ocean. we had unlimited time with bill and charlie was just delighted to spend so much time with his daddy and grandparents. it was a fantastic vacation and i would love to go back to the san diego or santa barbara areas. i will post more pictures from the trip in the next few posts.
last night we arrived home late and were confronted with reality. bill had to go back to work so he spent most of his night reading up on the disasters that happened when he was gone and pouring over papers, emails, etc. i spent my night unpacking, laundry, emails, mail, etc. we both went to bed well after midnight, but we were excited about what thursday would have in store. i had my 8 week OB appointment for baby schmitt #2 in the morning (most of you are now learning that i was pregnant).
so this morning, bill went off to work and i got charlie up and we headed to the drs for an 8:30 appointment. bill planned on sneaking out of the OR to come to my appointment so we could both see our baby’s heartbeat. bill arrived at the appointment and i met my doctor. we did the typical exam stuff and then she brought in the ultrasound. i couldn’t wait to see that little fluttering heart. i can still remember seeing charlie’s and it was such a special moment. she started the ultrasound and i didn’t see anything. she moved it around a bit and still nothing. that is when i knew. baby schmitt #2 was in heaven. we were both stunned and sad. my OB was so kind. we were able to grieve a bit in the room, but i was still in shock. bill went back to work and by the Grace of God his consultant noticed something was up and told bill to go home. he spent most of the day with me and charlie. we are saddened by the loss of our child, but we are blessed beyond measure and are so thankful we have a God who loves us. we rest and trust in his Sovereignty and his plan for our lives. we know we will see our little one in heaven one day.
a wonderful friend reminded me of these encouraging verses:
Psalm 34:17-19
The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers them from them all.
Isaiah 43:1-2
But now this is what the Lord says, He who created you, oh Jacob, He who formed you, oh Israel. "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, they will not rise up over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze."